Dealing with... (8Jun07 1730 PM Local)
Life's a sh*tty script sometimes...
My brother passed away the other day. Sudden. Quick. Dad said the docs think a heart attack. No Pain.
damn. Just like my mom, 11 years ago.
I'm going home tommorrow to help dad. I'm stone faced right now. This feels weird. BUT, i was stone faced too when i dealt with my mother's passing too. Only difference is that i don't have a car for a room mate to smash up while i'm still aborne.
Wasn't Rob's fault. the dumb broad froze crossing three lanes of traffic. gotta love some Floridian Drivers...
This sucks. This is even gonna get suckier as i gotta deal with my bro's stuff. He wasn't the most... well orderliy, recently.
I called him the other night. he sounded like shit but i didn't pay heed (Thought i merely woke him up). I was caught up in my own dramas by my own hand (I called her. broke every rule in the 'Dumbie's Guide to Ex-Grrl Fiends'. HAD to call her.)
I told him i would call him back the other day...
Right now, i type in some vain hope to grieve in my own, typically bizarre way. obviously i can't even think about Yadira. obivously any thoughts of spending a few nights with her are pointless, POINTLESS. No amount of glorious spanish a$$ will help here. Nada. Nope. I have priorities. responciblities. Funeral arrangements. calling friends, informing them. I don't even know any of those people in Doug's social circles (Does your loved ones?)
I wish Yadira was here. ...someone to hold and huggle...
fu..... udge. This sucks. I didn't call him back... And now the silence after the beep. Please, for me...
just f*cking beep...
i'll be offline probably a few days while i'm home to help dad with this event in our lives. obviously, death sucks but is part of life. Gotta deal with it. How have all of you dealt with it?
<Gebb> ok, what does it mean to be "huggled"? <spidroth_esq> Something terrible. <Squamatus> buggered <Dran> sodomised <Squamatus> by an acorn on a stick <tresca> LOL <Gebb> that didn't help <alynn>
